Happy new month everybody, I have really missed blogging oh, infact I have been reading other blogs but too lazy to update mine. I have a lot going on in my life right now and sometimes I feel like putting my emotions in words but am just too scared cause then I feel like I have been exposed, and been a very private person I find it really hard to open up to people, even people that I thought I was close to, I cannot seem to open up to them.
One of my major problems is trusting people, I have so many people I could call and talk to but one experience had me so scared that I dont think I can ever trust anybody other than members of my family. am so thankful to God for my hubby he has been a very good support system for me, I have not spoken to my four of my close friends in two and the half months, not that am angry with them or that they have done something to me, I just have not been feeling connected to them at all and I feel horrible about it, I did send them emails explaining what I was feeling and am glad they understood and kinda gave me some space, now I feel like am ready to reconnect with them, and am feeling I have been selfish and don't deserve their friendship. I honestly don't know how to go about it. on a more happier note my mum is coming to visit in a months time and am super excited for her to be here, although my dad is having a hard time letting her go since she will be here for xmas, I don't know maybe I should surprise him with a ticket right before christmas. I feel so good after writing my feelings down, hope I didn't bore you guys with my thoughts.
May the month of september be a blessing to us in Jesus name Amen.